I was proud of myself refraining from the cookies and candy during this holiday season.  I kept it from my house and all was well….until December 24th. 

It was all down hill starting Christmas Eve after the mailman, UPS man, and Fed Ex stopped and dropped of all kinds of goodies. 

When my kids were growing up, they knew how much I liked peppermint patties and they would always get me some for Christmas.  This year my youngest son got me Ghirardelli Peppermint bark along with another type made by Lyndon Reede.   I’ve been trying to ration myself by just putting 3 pieces at a time in the freezer and telling myself that’s all I could have.  But, alas, I find myself getting back in the freezer and munching down three more.  I lost count on Christmas day on how many of them I ate.

My son also sent my husband 4 different orders of various kinds of sausage and cheese   We’ve been munching on all these goodies watching tv.  It’s amazing how much a person can eat while watching tv.  We also got some home made walnut fudge and carrot cake from his sister.  I’ve been getting into the fudge in the middle of the night.  Grrrrr….where is my will power. 

Christmas day, the next door neighbors brought over some of their famous home made peanut brittle.  It just melts in your mouth.

I haven’t gotten on the scale since I started this downhill slide.  I don’t even want to know how much I have gained.  

I’m feeling lots of emotions with this eating frenzy of mine…..anger, disappointment, and sadness.  I can’t believe I have such little will power.  I keep asking myself, how did I lose 100 pounds before?  I never knew losing weight was so hard until I read it.  I know that sounds ridiculous ….but it’s true.  I use to just set my mind to losing weight and did it.   Now that I have a computer and I read how hard losing weight really is, I’ve made it hard on myself.

When I read about the statistics of successful weight loss, I wonder if I can really achieve my goal.  It’s time for me to get ready to go to work.  I volunteer in the gift shop at our local hospital and am filling in for someone today.  The good thing about that is I’m not home to get into any of the goodies.  Yippee!!!