Drastically Underwhelmed

So recently one of my friends made a video with me in it. And many people were less than impressed with my image:

I think there is a perception of Aaron as a sharp, clued up business type person who knows his stuff and it is worth giving him your $79 for his e-book.

In the video he looks like a normal everyday chap you would like to have a beer with.

and

From seeing the video Aaron is not how I imagined

Some others thought it looked real

It's good. Aaron comes across as very genuine and smart - not putting on airs or trying to be something he is not. I think he did a great job. Aaron, you talk just like you write!

and

aye, but he is well spoken.

and a friend just flowed me some cash for helping him...I don't think he even knows of this blog and his subject line of the email was "lose some weight"

I think a large problem with being heavy is that I make myself extra isolated and give myself few things to do. And then when bored I eat. I am typically happiest when I have more things to do than I could possibly do.

The big problem is self image and the feeling of empathy though. In public I think I sound like shite. I am certain of some of the reasons, but uncertain of why it has been hard for me to reprogram or change those ways.

I just got off the phone with a college professor who wants me to come teach some stuff about search engine marketing to his class. I also just got a message that another college wants to use my book for their course text. Working hard to do the things that raise self image longterm

• working out
• helping others
• finding things that make me happy
• spending more time on fun
  
• getting into speaking, etc.
  

while steering clear of the things that bring short term happiness at the expense of long term self image

• drinking
• overeating
• eating sugary foods
  

should help me do better longterm. Higher self image = less reason to be shy.

The other key is balance. I don't want to get so high on myself that I think I am better than others. I would have a loooooooong way to go to start thinking like that though ;) I doubt I would really let myself get away with that either.