Green Tea

So my roommate has been drinking lots of green tea for breakfast. I decided to give it a try and boy I really like it.

Sometimes I add a bit of honey to it too and it tastes awesome. Much less calories than many of my other snacks.

The Last Day

Well I went for a jog last night and it felt super good. I then went out and drank and it felt not so good. I wonder why I sometimes try so hard to find false happiness.

One of the few positive effects of drinking is that I was not hungry all day. Of course I felt like garbage and did not acomplish much all day.

Morning Jog & Moore

Well I went for a good jog this morning. It felt pretty good. I did not run as far as I normally do, just a few miles. My biggest problem is not how much I exercise but how often I do. If I can run at least 5 times a week for a few miles that should help me a ton.

There are a ton of people in this world who use false aluring concepts to teach you that you do not have enough time. And while I might not be able to run 10 miles every day there certainly is time for a few. I will also need to mix it up some, but I feel I am perhaps heading on the right path.

I also saw Michael Moore's movie today. First time I have left the house for something non work or exercise or grocerie related in over a month. I liked it. You should watch it :)

Random Weight Gaining Array :(

Lack of Focus or Priorities
I am having a hard time focusing and setting any priorities. I feel as though I am not that far away from being fairly successful on the web and have been putting a ton of time into it. I think I have been spreading myself out a bit much though.

Work & Social Interaction
Its dumb to work longer. Its smart to work smarter. I also have no separation between personal and work life <--- this can become a big problem if I am not careful. I have little social interaction other than which occurs in ASCII code. One good thing about my current setup is that if shitty stuff ever happens then at least I probably caused it.

The Roommate
I am certain I need to focus a bit more. My roommate got out of the navy not that long ago (AND BEING IN THE NUCLEAR NAVY FUCKING SUCKS) so he has been taking it slow and going to his moms and sisters almost every week.

Dinner
He cooked a couple asian dishes so far. To my surprise I actually liked tofu. I was certain that it was way to healthy for me to actually like it.

I think I want to make a recipie site for the stuff he cooks when he really gets into it. I already have a really fun site name picked out.

Lacking Drive
This blog is kinda in a state of limbo though, because I just do not see my physical health as being that much of a priority right now.

In the past I had many aweful horrific experiences which drove me at a rage and anger animalistic type level. I no longer have that and it is somewhat hard for me to find natural motivation and I do not feel like trying to introduce artificial stuff into my life.

I do not want to say that I am content, just that I lack proper drive and focus. Perhaps some Ginko Biobla, Ginseng, vitamins, and maybe sleeping during the dark hours would help me.

I am not necissarily depressed, but just feel kinda numb